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Monday, December 16, 2002 |
It was raining all day today. Rain comes so infrequently to Southern California that when it does, it's such a big event. Storm Watch 2002! Oooooo! I remember growing up in Chicago with snow that came up over my head! Anyway, that's all I saw on the news. That and sports of course. Am I the only one that thinks Yao Ming looks a little like Allen Hung, that cocky bastard from my high school? Hahah!
OK, the L rant will just have to wait for some other time. With the first of my finals tomorrow, I can't really spend the time to dogg on her as she deserves hahah. So as you can tell, today's update will be really short. Tomorrow I have my Advanced Computer Architecture Final, which it turns out is my hardest class this semester. Wish me luck people!
I've finally started studying =)
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Sunday, December 15, 2002 |
Hi all, hope you all had a good weekend. As for me, I was supposed to spend the time studying for finals. Somehow, I got no work done though, and pretty much lazed around the house all day. At least I can say that I'm not tired anymore! =) I find that every time that I have to study, I lack the motivation to get started, and you know how they say that the hardest job to finish is the one that you never start. So true.
I did get the chance to go see Star Trek on Friday. I admit it, I'm a trekkie. Without ruining the movie for anyone who might want to see it, let me just say that I enjoyed it and thought that it was actually pretty sad. Contrary to what Star Wars has become, Star Trek still focuses on the characters and the stories, set to the background of science fiction. Anyway, though it wasn't perfect, dragged on at some parts, and failed to capitalize on a few key moments where it could have been so much more, I still enjoyed the movie and recommend it. I'm looking forward to Thursday now when I go see The Two Towers!
I feel like ranting about L right now but it's late and I should really go to sleep. I'll dogg her tomorrow instead =)
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 |
I was surfing the web today looking for Christmas gifts when I came across this Viet Cong doll that I thought at best was a personification of tastelessness, and at worst absolutely disturbing. Not only does is promote communism and all that bullsh*t propaganda, it's a blatant slap in the face and disregard of all respect for those lost in the war. What next, a Ku Klux Klan doll? Or a Nazi Doll? Maybe if this doll were presented as villainous, but come, all I see is glorification here! Frankly, I understand the need for freedom of expression, but some things are just so lame it makes me sick.
Enough of that. On to lighter stuff. I'm hungry. Why is that I'm always hungry? I got cable recently, and I find that watching the Food Network at night doesn't help with my cravings. Now you know what amazes me? How many girls nowadays are unable to cook. My ex doesn't know how to cook. My first girlfriend didn't know how to cook. My sister doesn't even know how to cook. Before you ask, yes, I know how to cook, and if I do say so myself, I do it quite well. How is it that these girls are going to be leading a household if they can't even prepare a meal?
Now that I think of it, it would be so cool to have a girlfriend cook me a romantic dinner. Candlelight. Wine. Just her and me. You know the old saying don't you, that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach... hmmm, now I'm hungry =)
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Wednesday, December 11, 2002 |
I recently heard this story about my cousin that got me thinking. First off, let me give you a little background on him. He's the exact same age I am, and he's what I would like to call the "older" generation cousins that I have. That "older" is referring to our values and our beliefs. We were born in Vietnam but grew up in the United States so that we're neither totally Fobs nor totally Whitewashed. We learn to respect the older cultural ways while being able to express ourselves in a different way.
Anyway, what happened was that for a period, he kept going out late. Keep in mind that he wasn't out doing anything bad. All he was guilty of was spending time with friends longer than he should, and his dad would always stay up waiting. He would come home at 2 in the morning and his dad would nag him about being home at a reasonable hour. It got to the point where his dad had to give him a slight lashing, and it stopped him from going out for a while. Keep in mind that when you get to my age though, spanking just doesn't work anymore. It doesn't even hurt! So after a few weeks, it was back to the normal routine for my cousin.
So one night, when he came home, his dad was there waiting as usual. This time, his dad hands him the stick and says "Son, here, hit me instead. I should be punished for not knowing how to raise a son properly." It frightened my cousin enough that he hasn't been out late since.
Now that got me thinking. Would that lesson work on my younger cousins? For that matter, would that lesson work for any child that has grown up in a less familial environment and doesn't appreciate all that the parents do for them? When I see how kids nowadays are yelling at their parents with a total lack of respect and disregard for any figure of authority, it makes me realize that perhaps some of the older ways are indeed better, even though at face value they seem overly strict.
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Tuesday, December 10, 2002 |
It's the week before finals and that's officially the time when I'm the most burned out and unmotivated. All semester I work towards this time, and for some reason, the semester always seems just a couple of weeks too long, so that by the last week of school I'm drained. I just want to take my finals next week and get it all over with!
I was in the lab and saw this girl that I always notice. There's nothing special about her that draws my attention except for the fact that she's the only girl in the whole department that doesn't seem to get hit on by guys, and more importantly, she doesn't seem wrapped up by any attention that she might get. She's always focused on her work, will never make eye contact with you, and just goes around minding her own business. She has this boyfriend in there as well, and for a while, I couldn't really tell if they were a couple or not, because of the lack of any signs of affection. |
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night,
Trying to figure out this life.
Won't you take me by the hand,
Take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are,
But I, I'm with you
Avril Lavigne
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I finally figured it out when I saw them holding hands though. Well, one day as I was talking to L, it turns out that they are indeed a couple, and that they specifically avoid talking to others of the opposite sex. Therefore by that logic, he will never talk to L and she would never talk to me. I wonder if there's lack of trust in that relationship, or if they just agree to do that so that there is no unneeded resentment?
Anyway, as I was standing there, I couldn't help but notice that she was writing an e-mail message. I know, I'm such a snoop right? =) It turns out that she was writing a brief note to her boyfriend, with the subject line saying "I'm in room 403" and the text of the e-mail was one simple line: "Love you always." How sweet! Ten minutes later, I see them leaving campus, arm in arm with each other. Why can't I be as lucky? And at that point, I felt so envious, alone, and depressed.
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Sunday, December 8, 2002 |
I went to see Trish today! She's the Vietnamese singer that I go goo-goo-ga-ga over. It was originally scheduled to be at the Asia Entertainment store from 2-4, so I invited a couple of friends to go and meet with her. On the way there, I got a phone call from my cousin saying that it was moved to 1-2. I was then all anxious and got there as fast as I could.
I get there and I see no one. I was all sad, thinking that I had missed it. Anyway, as I start to turn around, ready to go home, I look in the window and she's in the store arranging some things! I run in, and that's the point that my brain shut off. I must have acted like such a goober in front of her!
I asked her to sign my CD that I had bought and then I also picked up her 2003 calendar. Then I asked for a picture, which you can tell I had that dazed look in my eyes. She felt so little and petite as I held her in my arms. She's so beautiful though. Look at that sweet smile and those mesmerizing eyes, not to mention her cool fashion statement!
| She was definitely sweet though. She smiled and made pleasant small talk with my friend D who likes to talk smack but never really lives up to all that talk. Afterwards he was all smiling, saying that she was into him. Funny guy. She also laughed at all the stupid little idiosyncrasies that we did, like how D came with no money and I had to spot him. She asked M if he was Vietnamese, and it seemed like she was really down to Earth, interested in getting to know her fans.
Anyway, it turns out that the original plan was to have the signing from 2-4, but the local radio show had said 1-2. So the lack of publicity for the 2-4 meant that she was mostly alone and so unlike other times when there was so many crowded people, we had her all to ourselves. Well, we thanked her and left, and that was obviously the high point of my day, err, week, err month... |
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So why is it I can never get a girl like Trish? Sweet, humble, nice, talented, and oh so beautiful. Heck, I can't even get a girl like her in my dreams! Oh well, too bad she only has like one signing a year. Not enough! I've been to all her signings so far, and I have so many posters, photos, CD's, and DVD's, all signed of course. Still not enough! Anyway, her webpage sucks, maybe I should design one and do it all for her, free of charge as her number one fan.. I am a computer science major right? Might as well put it to some use. =)
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Friday, December 6, 2002 |
I'm done with my Advanced Software Engineering Presentation! Let me gloat for a minute since I so rarely get to flaunt! =) I was all nervous the night before because my group was no where to be seen. Out of 7 people, I had only heard from 2 people. Anyway, I was up until 5:30 getting the final preparations ready.
I got to school the next day, and luckily, my friend Jenn had let me borrow her laptop for the presentation. Thanks Jenn! If I didn't have that then we wouldn't have had a presentation, because none of my group members had the software loaded! Anyway, all throughout the day, I felt queasy and I had butterflies in my stomach. I couldn't focus or pay attention in anything I was doing.
I get to class and the other group that we were competing with went first. It turns out that their presentation was horrible. They had no set presentation, their demo program crashed once every five minutes, they had no working executable, and they didn't meet the project requirements. And then it was my turn. I got up and presented what I had come up with and it went well! The program responded just as I had hoped, and our presentation was professional and it seemed very well prepared. The other group tried to get me in trouble by pointing out that the program didn't meet one of the requirements, but afterwards I approached the professor and pointed out that such a requirement was never specified in the project specifications and he agreed. What's more, he gave me a personal compliment about the program and went on to say that he liked our design, and even if we were missing something, that wouldn't imply that the project was bad.
Yeah I felt good. I did the almost all the program coding, and what must have amounted to the equivalent of five people's workloads. The other team had 5 programmers and an extra two weeks, and we still kicked butt. Now if only I were guaranteed an A, I'd rest easy. But I do feel like a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Well, that's my gloating spree. Thank you for listening =)
By the way, for all you girls out there, how old does that girl in the picture below look? She looks 20 to me, but my friend says she's jailbait. What do you think?
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Tuesday, December 3, 2002 |
Remember a long time ago when I told you my friend Ann was mad at me over a stupid incident? To this day we still haven't talked and there's no reason I should bring this up except to prove my assertion that girls are so idiotic at times. Recently, my friends J asked me if I thought he acted differently nowadays. When I asked in what manner he meant, he asked if he was more pompous or arrogant in his demeanor. I told him I saw no difference in the way he carries himself and the proceeded to ask him why the question all of a sudden. It turns out Ann got mad at him, and when he didn't apologize right away, our other friend Bonnie said he was no longer the same nice guy. I thought to myself what a bunch of hypocritical people I know. Ann is always mad at someone or another, and she expects everyone to bend to her will, even when they did nothing wrong. And Bonnie is not the person that should be harassing others about being stuck up and arrogant with money. Anyway, it was no fault of J's and I told him that he shouldn't bend ass over backwards to appease anyone, especially when it's no fault of his own.
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Why is that I know no cool girls? Most girls I know are snobbish, stuck-up, and frankly not that nice to others. And people wonder why I think so poorly of the female race... I'm still waiting for that special one of you to come along and prove me wrong! Sigh, what ever happened to all the MCAT Girls out there?
I can't believe it's December. This past year has gone by pretty fast. I'm almost down to my last semester before I get my Degree. Me with a Master's, kind of freaky eh? But then again, school doesn't seem to be going by fast enough. There's two weeks left until finals and I can't wait for these weeks to pass. I'm completely burned out and to be honest I've lost a lot of motivation. Even in the classes that I help teach, I've grown very impatient with people, which is kind of bad.
This week is especially draining. I had this huge semester project that I had to work on with team members. The only thing is that I took on more responsibility than I would have liked. That combined with inexperience by a few members, and laziness by a few others, left it up to me to complete a good portion of the project. I finished tonight and I have to present on Thursday so wish me luck. I compiled the project and the program is half a meg in size, with over 5000 lines of code, not to mention all the forms and graphics. I'm so burned! How sweet it would be to turn to someone right now, look into their eyes, and just hold them in my arms as I relax.
I'm doing this Secret Santa event with an online group that I'm part of. I got my recipient today and now I have to find a small $5 trinket to send. How pleasant that must be to suddenly out of the blue receive an act of kindness? A surprise gift in the mail when you least expect? I hope that whoever it is I have enjoys what I get for them.
I've been having a lot of weird dreams lately. In these dreams, I'm with some girl. Or I'm fighting with others over some girl. And she's always a different person, and I have no idea who she is, but I know that in my dream that she and I are meant to be together. Nothing ever happens except talking and smiling, and yet I always wake up with a sense of sorrow having it all taken away. Now I've heard of dreaming about someone you know or long for, but some mystery girl? Or mystery girls? My dreams are really trippy at times and have even come true, so is there a chance that I've seen my future love?
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