So I was thinking about how girls always make up excuses about not being with guys. From my experience and what I hear around, a girl knows right away if she's interested in a guy. So why is it that when a guy asks her out, she say's she'll think about it, only later turn the guy down. I mean if a guy gets enough nerve to ask a girl out, shouldn't she have the courage to give him an honest answer like no thanks? I mean what's up, is she just out to lead him on a little longer and play with him a bit more?

And why is that every single time I hear about a breakup, the girl always says "Oh, he was too good for me" or "He can do better." This basically means we're being punished for being nice. But then the girl turns around and becomes a hypocrite and says "Why aren't there any nice guys out there?" Anyway, I think I mentioned this already, but it just gets on my nerves, you know? Why on earth do you guys do this?

Kinda depressing. I'm hoping that one day some wonderful girl comes around and proves me totally wrong. Personally, I doubt it'll happen any time soon though... especially being stuck in computer science where there is a 20 to 1 ratio. Anyway, I did absolutely nothing today. Woke up at 12. Ate. Slept again. Ate. Gonna go to bed now. That's how life should be! Have a good weekend and Labor Day people!

I hate the drive to school. Why is it that in California, people always have to slow down and look at things? I mean this is the only place on earth where it takes a person 1 hour to drive 5 miles because some idiot dropped their shoe in the slow lane! Anyway, I get to school, and there ends up being now parking. What's up with that? All that money for a parking permit, and I end up having to park in the boonies after an hour of searching. It's been a long day!

Hyo everyone! See how happy these girls look? I was thinking today about how girls and guys react differently to breaking up. After a break up, girls call up their friends and want to go hang out. That's what my ex did. 1 hour after we broke up. Yep, 1 hour. She went with her friend to a sushi bar. Guys on the other hand sit and mope at home, not eating for a week. Yep, that's what I did. Anyone see that episode of Friends where Chandler and Janice break up and he's stuck in depression? The four steps of rehabilitation? Well, I've never been to step 3, but I for sure know step 1 too well. See, just more proof that girls are evil. Now when a girl gets over her guy that fast, especially after being with him for so long, doesn't that just trivialize everything that they shared together?

In school, I'm trying out for this programming competition that might eventually represent the school at the regional and state competitions. Sounded like fun, and besides, I'm always up for a good challenge. I mean my team is full of beginners and we're competing against seasoned veterans. We came in second today! Would have been first, but I slipped on one of my loops. Anyway, the top three teams of 3 go, so I'm hoping to get better by then. Did I mention the tournament's in Hawaii? But I gotta say, those guys are good though, so I wouldn't hold my breath about making the team. Definitely a worthy challenge though.

Well, I'm feeling tired, so today's update will be shorter than usual. Let me end it with a roll call. Remember me telling you about my student project involving computer and special effects? We're in need to a girl to play the lead roll. Sorry, no money, but there's a chance for you to be involved with something really fun and creative. Besides, you might actually be able to see what I look like =) We're looking for an Asian girl, 5'0" to 5'7" preferably long hair, fair skin, and petite. If you look like the girl on the left, contact me! I'm just kidding, but if you're interested, let me know. Shout outs to Big Smooth and Vid Girl!

You know what? I never appreciated high school as much as I should have. All throughout, all I could think about was getting out of school and moving off. I never realized how good I had it. No responsibility except to succeed in school. Many friends. And experiences that I could never forget.

I saw this cute girl today in the school parking lot. Apparently she was lost and was looking for her car. Any other time, I would've asked her if she needed help and then maybe used the opportunity to get to know her better. But for reason, I was just out of it. I mean the whole dating thing seems so pointless to me now. Seriously, I think girls already make up their minds before they even get to know a guy if anything is going to happen. I might as well sit back and have any girl who's interested just come up to me instead, like my friend Big Smooth.

Happy birthday shout out to Queen Hedgie! Final question: is Mie pronounced Mai or Mia? Mail me and let me know your opinions.

School today was a pain. Why is it that I can't stay awake in class? I mean I love computer science and the labs are great and interesting, but I just can't seem to stay awake through the lectures. Hopefully I don't snore. In all my years of school, I've noticed that I'm always late and sleepy through my first class, no matter how late. It happens in my 8 AM class. It happens in my 2 PM class. If I didn't pull off the grades that I do, I'd feel bad! But since everything seems to be working fine now, I won't complain.

Two girls. That's how many cute girls there are in the computer science department at my school. 2. And no, these are not them. Dream on! Just random cutie posts... Anyway, I mean there's not a lot of girls in computer science anyway, but 2 is just pitiful, don't you think? Obviously they're always surrounded by guys, which reminded me of my ex's. Why is that girls always get so excited about attention and forget all that matters around them? I caught my first girlfriend cheating on me, and I dumped her. A few weeks later, the guy she cheated on me with dumped her as well. It was then that she tried to come back to me.

Which brings me to the matter of forgiving. How much should a person forgive the one they love? If my girlfriend goes to lunch with another guy, is that ok? what about the movies? Holding hands? Hugs? Kissing? Going all the way? Where should a guy draw the line? I always find it doubly painful that if a guy doesn't care enough, the girl slips away from him. Yet at the same time, if he tries to hold on too tight, she longs to break free. And after the break up, how long should the guy mourn before going out with someone else? Personally, I never understood those who just started dating again within the next week, especially after going out with someone for years. Doesn't that just trivialize all that they originally had?

So in my experience, girls never know what they want. They complain about how there's no nice guys out there, then they turn around and go out with the most idiotic, mean, player type losers that i can think of. What is up with that? Speaking of losers, there's this guy at school that I hate. I know nothing about him. Just his face is enough to piss me off though. Is that possible? I mean, if there is indeed such a thing as love at first site, couldn't there also be hate at first site?

There's this lady I hate. Pure off, hate her to hell can't stand the look of her face type hate. The thing is, she's married to my uncle, which forces me, at the least, to be prim and proper with her. Lately, she's been sneaking around doing god knows what behind his back. And she's always asking for money. Well, it turns out that she's addicted to gambling, and spends all her time at some local casino. To make matters worse, there's always the possibility that she's seeing someone behind my uncle's back. Now my uncle is the nicest guy on the planet, so he gets mad and whatever but doesn't really take action. But I know that stupid lady is gonna break his heart and maybe get a divorce whatever. So, what should a poor guy like me try to do to help so that if things do take a turn for the worse, he won't risk losing everything he has? See, even more proof that nice guys finish last.

My friend and I were talking about ex's. Why is that girls always make you spell it out if you have feelings for them, yet when you ask them if they love you, they respond with "you should already know, and I shouldn't need to tell you?" Such a hypocritical double standard, don't you think?

The Importance Of "Correct Punctuation" Dear John: I want a man who knows what love is all about. You are generous, kind, thoughtful. People who are not like you admit to being useless and inferior. You have ruined me for other men. I yearn for you. I have no feelings whatsoever when we're apart. I can be forever happy--will you let me be yours? Gloria Dear John: I want a man who knows what love is. All about you are generous, kind, thoughtful people, who are not like you. Admit to being useless and inferior. You have ruined me. For other men, I yearn. For you, I have no feelings whatsoever. When we're apart, I can be forever happy. Will you let me be? Yours, Gloria

She reminds a lot of this girl I once knew. She's gone now, living somewhere up in San Jose. It got me thinking about long distance relationships. Every one always goes into them with the best intentions, but I think in all my years, I've only seen it successful once. Is it because the heart gets lonely and is purposely looking for a replacement? Or is it that if you spend enough time with someone, you fall in love with them, so likewise if you spend so little time with someone, you fall out of love with that person?

So my friend and I decided to do laps in the pool today. We ended up doing over 100 laps. Now is that crazy or what? Alone, guys are the laziest specimens of life on this planet. Why even the king of beasts himself, the mighty lion, sleeps for most of the day. But get a few together and we go crazy and agree to do some of the weirdest, silliest stuff. Examples: The movie American Pie and politicians. Speaking of which, why the %@!? is Bush on one of the longest vacations in history while the country continues it's downslide? Am I the only one who disapproves of that man? I mean geez, he gets into office in the end of January, works for 6 months, then takes a month long vacation. Why can't I do that?

Enough of politics. My ranting is done. Question for the day: Is it better to fall in love with a girl that is the same culture as me but of different religion, or one of the same religious faith but of a different culture. So, me being a Vietnamese Buddhist, would I be better off going with a Japanese Buddhist, or a Vietnamese Catholic. And please no ramblings about how you can't control who you love... blah blah blah. I already know that, but please just send in some of your honest opinions. Peace.

I've always thought about the decisions I've made in life. How my life could have been. I dreamt about my dad last night. What would have happened if he had never passed away? Would I have become the man I am today? Would I still be in Medical School? I wonder if he's ever looking down on me and if he's proud of my life? Sometimes I sit at night and question the meaning of it all. I heard a quote that living life is like drawing without an eraser. I wonder how my life looks. Probably a bunch of messy scribbles that you can only make out from a distance. But I guess that's how everyone's is too. Nobody is perfect. But then again, I'm nobody, so I guess I'm perfect =)

There's a chapter in my life I've always wondered about. I met two wonderful girls at exactly the same time. I fell in love with both of them, but I kept it secret and neither knew how I felt. Of course I had to be truthful and make a choice, but I guess I was waiting for a sign to help me in such a decision. Anyway, to make a long story short, Titanic became my sign. Girl A and I were supposed to go see it together, but at the last minute she backed out. Eventually we grew apart. Then Girl B came along and we grew closer together. So I always assumed it was fate. But how do I know? Have you ever seen Mr. Destiny or The Family Man? How different would I be if I had gone with her to that movie? We might have gone out. We might still be going out. Or she could have cheated on me just as the other girl did. Who knows? Would I have such a depressing outlook on girls if my heart hadn't been stepped on twice by people who said they loved me? Fate, Destiny, Serendipity, whatever you call it... it seems to be having fun messing with me. I'm still waiting for Miss Right to prove me wrong.

Do you believe in love at first sight? I mean the type of love that you get by just looking at someone. I was listening to that new Mandy Moore song It Only Took A Minute and it got me thinking. First off, it's a very good song. All her songs are. I Wanna Be With You, Want You Back, Crush... and a lot of others but that's another story. Anyway, the song talks about only taking a minute to realize that she's fallen in love with someone and it just got me thinking if that's even possible. What happens when the excitement and mystery wears off? Will the attraction still be there when familiarity and comfort sink in?

This leads me into another point. I have a friend that judges girls by their figures, almost solely on their figures. Therefore, in his eyes, a girl with a "fine body" is pretty, regardless of anything else. I disagree. Totally. For me, the face comes first. I mean isn't that what you're looking at like 90% of the time? So for me, a beautiful girl has amazing eyes, hair, smile, etc., but more importantly a wonderful personality.

So my friend tells me I'm picky. Is that a good or bad thing? Have I already met the person that I'm supposed to be with but passed her up because of some nit pick that I always do? And if I'm so picky, why do I seem to have this mysterious reputation of liking everybody? Could it be that I'm just naive or overly nice that I tend to fall or rebound onto any caring person? I mean that still doesn't mean I want to carry out anything or go anywhere with that person. I'm 23 and I've had 2 relationships that lasted over 2 years each. Does that sound like someone who's easy or desperate? I hope not. I'm not the player type or the kind of guy who just wants to date 30 different girls a month. Happiness should be based on a loving and growing relationship, not a healthy libido. So I guess that's why I'm single right now. I may believe that all girls are evil, but deep down I guess I'm still waiting for the perfect soul mate to just come up and knock on my door. Picky or not, I guess that's who I am.

Now I know I'm going to get major backlash for this from all you chicas out there, but in my experience, girls are in fact pretty evil. Every girl I know has broken a guy's heart. In some cases, two or three guys. Too many stories of cheating, lying, and pain to tell here, but let me just say these girls never seem hesitant to break a guy's heart. And it always ends up that the nicer the guy, the worse he gets hurt. Yours truly included of course.

I know what you might be thinking. These girls are all pigeons that take guys for rides, and I should meet nice girls, right? Well, these are definitely the nicest girls around. I mean, these are basically my friends and their friends, the kind of girls that you can bring home to mom. So what does this mean? I should start going out with mean, wild playing type girls? Or should I stop being nice and start becoming a player? Mail me and let me know your opinions.